New Week, New Guilt

So last week I was okay about working and leaving the boys. This week is a whole other story. This week I see another teacher able to see her baby during the day, and I just want to go home. I would love to see my baby during the day, but my schedule is not so easy to accomodate this. I take my job seriously, and do it whole heartedly. There is nothing I would not do for the class or school (okay there are some things I would not do, but that is touching the envelope too much). I am beginning to think that maybe I should take a step back from my faithfulness to work, and just be like everyone else and do the bare minimum amount of work-- e.g. stop volunteering for things!! But is this really me? I do not think so. I want Lex and Jack to see that it is good to volunteer and to love what you do. I want them to see that you can do it all... love your work and your family and put both if them first... well family is always first, but you know what i mean.

It is just hard seeing others at work with their newborns... I feel guilty that mine cannot come to visit (for a specific reason). Mother's guilt SUCKS!!!

My other issue is weight. My thyroid medicine was changed a month after having Jack and it is putting at a place I do not want to be. I watch what I eat, work out, and I still cannot lose the weight. I think I am going to have to call the doctor because it is killing me in the mornings having to get dressed for work and things not fitting. I feel like a total heffer- I know I am not, but I want to feel comfortable. Not to mention with Jason getting married, I want to look cute in a dress.

Well that is off my chest... feel a little better...